You might defy them notions, but what can you do about it?

People may have their own reasons to keep to themselves.

Reasons that they will never divulge, least of all to me, and trust me, I'm fine with that.

The real deal starts when their so called isolation [strictly from me] begins almost suddenly. It creates many an awkward moment. Its almost like, at this one moment, you were close, and the next moment, he/she doesn't even choose to say "hie" to you on facebook chat. It leaves a small part of your brain trying to analyse the now-crept-in awkwardness forever, unless, you forget about his/her mere existence, whose chances are second to never. 'Cause, science plays a huge role in it, you see.

The proton, will never attract a proton.

The electron always will. 

Its all about the whole notion of positive and negative, my friend.

And I'm the sexy proton.

Which of course, you didn't have to know.

Also, there will always be some, who have been consistently close to you, but will always make use of some little white lies, only to not let out what or who their real priorities are.

And, I will always be on the other side of the rules.

So, does that make you think that I'm intentionally letting myself feel victimized. Hell, no! I'm choosing to just go with the flow.

As clichéd as it may seem, I'm getting used to the number of changes around me. People, emotions, and priorities alike.

So I realized, over time, that going with whatever life seems to throw at you is the best bet. There will be a thousand complaints in the interim, but there will be no frustration, the lack of which, makes it a fairly  nice deal.

Clearly, I've never stood by the rules I've made. Rules like not calling someone up, not confronting someone, not seeming desperate enough, have been duly taken and passed under the table. 

My power of language notwithstanding, its an earnest effort for me to be awkward with anyone. The relationship, that always was, will always be, or so I think, only to be caught off guard [read: to be put off].

I'm apparently friendly, they say, but its just me, I'm awkwardly personal, weirdly interfering, and I don't remember the last time I treated two regular people in my life any differently.

I have my own notions, only that they are defied.

Contrary, much?

P. S. Also, pray for me, my admissions scare me sometime.