Monday, April 4, 2011

Pain, stays.

I may profess my emotional strength, claim to be very strong. I can hide my tears under smiles of fortitude. I'm not that strong, not the least bit. When i cry, my inner recesses hurt, like so much, death and everything else could seem sweeter. Maybe it is. Physical pain, you cry over for some minutes. In fact, I don't remember the last time I cried when I got physically hurt. It's been a while. A while.
Emotional pain is hard to take. It hurts every inch of your body. You cry with your face engrossed in a pillow, hair remains scattered, so are the tears. For whom? Nobody at all. Cause, frankly, nobody really cares. It's a very egoistic world out here. You could be weak enough to take the phone and call back, even if its not your mistake, even if its you who's hurt, even if its you who's crying. You'll still call. You'll cry a bit more, hang up. The call is not returned, neither is the care. Its a strong egoistic world out there. Stronger than you. And someday, it will crush you. So bad, your recesses will hurt ten times more. The pain will be too much to take. All the foot steps taken will be on roads that lead to your opposite end. Its a cruel world out there. And its happier than you are. Your care will always be unreturned. Always. And Forever and a day.  
My recesses hurt, real bad. But it will be taken care of, by sleep, that over comes fatigue and sadness, and grief.

11 comments:

some unspoken words said...

everyone is weak mehar, not only you and me. its all about our emotions. so be happy and dont let urself hurt. and keep smiling because even we at our own dont like to watch a sad face.

Blasphemous Aesthete said...

It is naive of us to raise our stakes at someone who is not 'Ourself'. The world, it is going to derive pleasure out of misery, and loves to see us in a coup. Sleep, it will fade away pain, and tears, and the head ache too... only if it comes.

Regards,
Blasphemous Aesthete

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The Many Colours of Happiness said...

The world isn't as bad as it seems sometimes. You just have to keep reminding yourself how much good there is out there. And if someone doesn't care, then they don't deserve to have you care about them.

Nikita said...

Hugs....
Hugs...
Hugs....

I know they are gonna help...

Eon Heath said...

Hey, Hi
well that was...hmmm...nice in a way. i donno how exactly, but the words portrayed the person as someone who is blank, the emotions have surpassed the limits where you feel anything...makes you feel his/her distress...
nice...

Hmm, as far as this world is concerned, its quite simple...be good to ppl who need someone, and be cautious of the ppl who need you... :)

Regards,
The Silhouette...

haze said...

oh, i know this feeling, dove... trust me... and it's never easy to hold back the tears... let it flow, sometimes, it's the best way to handle it... just let it flow... let the pain hurt you... and lastly, let it go... *hugs*

The Solitary Writer said...

wwhat happened?? you alright?

aakash said...

Yeah, the world can suck at times..
But the best part is nothing really lasts.. the good and the bad phases, all pass away...
Doesn't matter what the world feels on us, pity on them rather..

aJ

Meher said...

@All thank you so much. Your comments made my day.

Chirag Deshpande said...

I read this post in a situation that I am bound to believe in every single word of it. Maybe the conditions will change tomorrow, maybe not. But now, it's all so identical.

Thanks for these words which are a fair representation of something I am dealing with this time.

Sorry to bother, but nice post. Just felt like commenting my heart out.

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Piece,
Chirag.