Saturday, June 11, 2011

You might defy them notions, but what can you do about it?

People may have their own reasons to keep to themselves.
Reasons that they will never divulge, least of all to me, and trust me, I'm fine with that.
The real deal starts when their so called isolation [strictly from me] begins almost suddenly. It creates many an awkward moment. Its almost like, at this one moment, you were close, and the next moment, he/she doesn't even choose to say "hie" to you on facebook chat. It leaves a small part of your brain trying to analyse the now-crept-in awkwardness forever, unless, you forget about his/her mere existence, whose chances are second to never. 'Cause, science plays a huge role in it, you see.
The proton, will never attract a proton.
The electron always will. 
Its all about the whole notion of positive and negative, my friend.
And I'm the sexy proton.
Which of course, you didn't have to know.

Also, there will always be some, who have been consistently close to you, but will always make use of some little white lies, only to not let out what or who their real priorities are.
And, I will always be on the other side of the rules.
So, does that make you think that I'm intentionally letting myself feel victimized. Hell, no! I'm choosing to just go with the flow.
As clichéd as it may seem, I'm getting used to the number of changes around me. People, emotions, and priorities alike.
So I realized, over time, that going with whatever life seems to throw at you is the best bet. There will be a thousand complaints in the interim, but there will be no frustration, the lack of which, makes it a fairly  nice deal.

Clearly, I've never stood by the rules I've made. Rules like not calling someone up, not confronting someone, not seeming desperate enough, have been duly taken and passed under the table. 
My power of language notwithstanding, its an earnest effort for me to be awkward with anyone. The relationship, that always was, will always be, or so I think, only to be caught off guard [read: to be put off].
I'm apparently friendly, they say, but its just me, I'm awkwardly personal, weirdly interfering, and I don't remember the last time I treated two regular people in my life any differently.
I have my own notions, only that they are defied.
Contrary, much?

P. S. Also, pray for me, my admissions scare me sometime.


Between The Lines said...

Hey, Sexy Proton. :P

I should try 'going with the flow'. Really really badly.


Between The Lines said...

Also, my prayers are with youuu! :)

Poulomi said...

I'm the same you know?
Absolutely and totally.
Felt nice to know I'm not the only weird one who is this way :)

P.S- Admissions are freaking me out like anything!

aakash said...

Haha... 'sexy proton'! I just loved the attribute.. Any nerd can fall for you now :)

Reading this, reminds of the song I often love listening 'God is great, beer is good and people are crazy' ;)


Blasphemous Aesthete said...

Protons are heavy, positive albeit, heavier than electrons, plus are deeply involved in fission and fusion. :P

I've had that awkward feeling too sometimes. The awkwardness sometimes gets so suffocating that you just feel like either going and getting all things cleared up in a full frontal argument, or just jinxing it, altogether.

Nice post.
And why would you be scared of admissions, you look like a bright girl :)

Blasphemous Aesthete

Red Handed said...

I'm apparently friendly, they say, but its just me, I'm awkwardly personal, weirdly interfering, and I don't remember the last time I treated two regular people in my life any differently.


Lovely post!

nd about ur admissions...the proton line makes you seem bright :P

Eon Heath said...

Hey, Hi
well, this post is nice for the way you put it...the expression. nice..

admission..hmm, dont worry re..nahi hua toh bol, main dubai (saudi) se phone lagayega..


Meher said...

@ Between The Lines Thanks you <3, and you should try, it helps!

@Poulomi Best of luck to the two of us. :|

@Aakash Oh, I like cute nerds.

@Blasphemous Aesthete Oh, I loved chemistry too, you know. Also, about me being bright, humbly accepted. Admissions is heavy shit anyway, no!

@Red Handed The proton line, you say? :P

@Eon Okay, thanks now. :)

sartorial diary said...

i think it's best to take life one day at a time(read: go with the flow).
life, and people are can't really hold onto them forever, so u should just try and enjoy whatever amount of time u get to spend with them! :)

Sorcerer said...

Take life as it comes...
Just get lost in the flow and enjoy it.


Mehak said...

Completely related to this.
Especially liked the 'sexy proton' bit. hehe.

good your admission's done. all the best!