Saturday, August 7, 2010

Goodbye

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How much time is too much time?Or,how much time is too little.
With these thoughts racing through her mind,she sat down.Her increased heart beat told her,that this is not what it was meant to be.
This had always felt right.When they were young teens walking hand in hand in the college campus,it felt just right.They were kids.They were asumed to have a casual fling.But god,they didn't.It was love.Not some teeny-weeny love affair.The real one,the mature one.Yes,it was love allright.
They grew up,the love remained.Or so,they thought.They were petty issues,there always were.She sighed,thats the thing with teenage love addicts,they think everything can be worked upon.And they did,temporarily ofcourse.
They got married.Was it then that it went downhill.She sighed.Having had a difficult childhood,she had wanted her marriage to be the best thing ever.More than that,she wanted her marriage to stay.
She looked at the rock on her finger.That was the best day of her life,and her blood flow got all pulsating.She heard them laughing.
This wan't the time for reminiscing those days,It was time to leave.Not for once,could she bear to see her with him in the same house.
It changed so fast.Coming late for work,frequent day-outs with friends.But all thats done.
It was time for the goodbyes.

The man she loved,for the last 10 years had changed.He was the one she had her first kiss with.He was the one to whom she had submitted herself,physically,emotionally and mentally.And he didn't belong to her anymore.
It would be painful to utter the word.This wasn't right,he had been her's always.How could they part?How could he ever love someone else,after all the promises that they had made?Had she asked too much from God..??
Her last week in the house,had gone into planning this very moment again and again.She had promised herself,that she wouldn't be any weaker.She'd wish him all the luck in the world (yeah,right*),and would make a graceful exit.But as she went down the stairs,she felt her feet growing numb.
"Fuck",she murmured under her breath.She stopped,midway.Took in the air around her slowly.Tried to let the feeling sink in.It was goodbye time after all.As she walked down again,she saw them slipping into his room.Arm in arm,smiling.Not once,had he looked back.Not once.Not a glance.She's didn't even get his goodbye.
Tears streamed down her face.She wiped them,took a piece of paper,wrote down the seven letters and slowly hissed,"Goodbye,love".



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29 comments:

Anonymous Someone said...

Interesting. Reminds me of another story that someone told me, it was about the novel by Tagore, The two sisters.

Teen love is something that has very less chances of being real and forever. Don't know why but its often an infatuation. Maybe the thrill of getting what is desired is highest in youth.

Nice read.

Regards
Blasphemous Aesthete

Z.J.Ascensio said...

People change. Often it's not for the better. The only reason marriage appeared to work in the past is because it was unacceptable for it to not, so truths were hidden and many things (affairs, abuses) were over-looked. Nothing about marriage has changed except for the fact that people can now choose to leave without much criticism.

Still, many still expect marital bliss regardless of statistics. Everyone is the exception to the rule. Everyone still clings to that hope that they'll have that ideal perfect marriage, the one their own parents couldn't pull off.

I don't mean for this to sound hopeless, but if people understood how rare it is, maybe they wouldn't beat themselves up so much when it turns out their first love just isn't the one, no matter how much you wish he or she was.

I think the failure is that people erroneously believe finding love is finding your other half. It's not though. You are a whole and complete person. You can love another immensely, but you can't predict or control their actions or future, no matter how safe you feel.

Maintain your wholeness or you'll find yourself lost and left missing a part of yourself. No person should be given that much power, regardless of so-called romantic notions.

Leo said...

ooff.. that was sad..
nicely narrated tho.

all the best for BATOM..!

vivek said...

nice post ..loved the emotional flow..

all the best :)

take care

Jaspreet said...

Very poignant.The hard truth.They had much expectations from each other but none was satisfied with the way things were going..dunno why this happens.At one point in time,we are too sure of things and when our wish is actually granted,we have to repent!
Brilliantly done! All the best!

Meher....all out to explore..!! said...

@Anonymous someone..teen love,in most cases falls apart.I so wish,it wasn't that way :) .

@Z.J.Ascensio..love is not to be forced.It just happens,and then it stays,if its the genuine everlasting one.
And when two people,genuinely in love get married,marraige is just a legal label to their relationship.The love,if genuine,should remain,no matter what.

Meher....all out to explore..!! said...

@Leo..goodbyes are rarely happy.Thanks for dropping by.

@Vivek..thank you.

@Jaspreet...if only all expectations were fulfilled.Thanks for visiting the blog.

Dreamer said...

It's sad, isn't it? All our kid's fairy tales end with "and they lived happily ever after" and as we grow older we realize there is no happily ever after, after all! Nice read. All the best for BATOM!

Meher....all out to explore..!! said...

@Dreamer..very true.
and thank you.

Dipti said...

so sad..

goodbyes, the "GOOD"byes are never good.. i wonder why they are called goodbyes. they should say badbye when its the forever-bye Bye.

nice post , i liked it !

Meher....all out to explore..!! said...

@Dipti...yeah,badbyes make more sense when its the forever bye bye.
thank you.

The Solitary Writer said...

omg well narrated..it reminds me of one of my short stories that i'd written during my active blogging days....it is sad but well written..:)

Serge Cornillet said...

Nice inspiration!! Thaks for your visit!!
Serge

Phoenixritu said...

Like someone said in the comment section Good Byes are never good. They are sad and painful. Nicely written

Meher....all out to explore..!! said...

@The solitary writer..thanks a ton for the follow.

@Serge cornillet...thanks for visting.and you're welcome.

@Phoenixritu...thanks for dropping by.

Samadrita said...

I guess love doesn't last forever in most cases. That kind of thing only exists in romance novels and rom coms.
In the end we're left with no other choice but to say goodbye.
Best of luck for BAT!

Meher....all out to explore..!! said...

@Samadrita..love ceases to exist when it ain't genuine and ever lasting.
thankyou.

Vee... said...

Your post is full of emotions! I mean while reading your post I could imagine your fictitious character lost in thoughts and writing a goodbye letter.

And I found a mistake in your post. Goodbye is 7 lettered not 7 words :P Being a software guy, I cannot resist this urge to point out software bug in other person's code. So is this urge!!

Someone Is Special said...

Interesting and sad tale... I am impressed...

All The Best for BAT 13.

gmsaravana - Goodbye

Yours Frendly,
Someone Is Special

Meher....all out to explore..!! said...

@Vee...thanks for pointing that out.I totally missed that in the initial para.Got that right in the end though :P.thanks for stopping by.

@Someone is special..thankyou.all the best to you too.

Vipul Grover said...

Hi Meher, this story reminds me of my frst fiction - The Last Number Dialled..
Relations are tricky and when things change they cn get really messy.. the emotions have been brought out nicely.. ATB :)

Meher....all out to explore..!! said...

@vipul Grover...thankyou so much.
all the best to you too. :)

gkam said...

Its just sad when one believes to enter a relationship expecting it to be all 'happily ever after' but is just so not the case all the time.

ATB for BAT13
Gkam - Goodbye

Meher....all out to explore..!! said...

@gkam..yeah,very sad,when we expect things to work in a certain way and they don't.
All the best to you too.

Keerthi P said...

Hard-hitting. Though the hope of "This too shall pass by and mend itself" is not something only by the teenagers. Loved it!

All the best!

Meher....all out to explore..!! said...

@Keerthi P...thanks a ton..!!

Rinaya said...

It's a lovely story,sad yet truthful.Some say love is all but a chemical reaction in your body that stays hardly for a year..sometimes I agree,but sometimes I see aged couples having a quiet moment together that makes me trust love all over again.But the question still remains,how much of yourself can you give to him?
Good luck for BAT13!

Meher....all out to explore..!! said...

@Rinaya...its better not to generalise love as a temporary or permanent feeling.If its genuine and pure,it should stay forever.

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